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The Badge Between Us by Terrence P. Dwyer

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The Badge Between Us

Narrator
John Chancer
Publisher
Bloomsbury Publishing
Publish Date
16 April 2026
Run Time
9 hours 47 minutes
Format
Audiobook
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Bloomsbury presents The Badge Between Us by Terrence P. Dwyer, read by John Chancer.

The Badge Between Us is a raw, unfiltered account of policing that tracks the impact of secondary trauma and moral injury, infused by instances of organizational betrayal and police officer corruption. It is a first-person account of author Terrence P. Dwyer’s final year as a New York State Police Investigator, with flashbacks from a 22-year career spent responding to and investigating violent crime and organized criminal gangs, and its impact upon him and his family. Through the lens of a final gang investigation and the subsequent quintuple murder of a young family, Dwyer delves into the workaday world of a homicide investigator.

Critics Review

  • Terry Dwyer has written a moving memoir of his two plus decades as a police officer. It moves artfully between public and private, from an unfiltered, detailed, and evocative presentation of the successful investigation and prosecution of a violent criminal gang, to a depiction of the stresses upon his family caused by the frustrations and miseries of a career in law enforcement.

    --J. Michael Lennon, Pulitzer Prize and National Book Award Nominee and author of "Norman Mailer: A Double Life"

  • This book explores the personal challenges, sacrifices, and dedication of the author in his duties as a police officer. Highly recommended for all readers.

    --Joseph D. Pistone, retired FBI agent and New York Times Bestselling author "Donnie Brasco, My Undercover Life in the Mafia"

  • An eclectic confluence of street and sweet; Dwyer’s intimate memoir wrapped in a true-crime classic.

    Hippocampus Magazine

  • Terry Dwyer’s The Badge Between Us is a riveting account from a man of strong character and ideals who becomes a New York State Trooper to enforce the law and do good in the world. A standup cop and a devoted family man, he rises to the rank of investigator and begins working organized crime investigations, murders, and gang cases, to name a few. But along the way, he is stymied time and again by corruption and complicity from within his own ranks all the way up the chain of command to Albany. Dwyer's struggles to navigate his sense of duty, his ethics, morality, and loyalty to the badge he’s sworn to uphold as his nerves, his sense of self and his marriage strain to the brink of breaking, makes for propulsive reading.

    Beverly Donofrio, bestselling author of "Riding in Cars with Boys"

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  • Terrence P. Dwyer’s memoir, The Badge Between Us, is a raw, heartfelt, and simmeringly honest journey into the life and mind of a criminal investigator in a dark moment of American history. At times bleak and foreboding, at other times shimmering with hope, the story is driven by Dwyer’s uncanny willingness to dissect his own psychology, for good or bad. The stakes here are incredibly high: not only the lives of New York citizens and the criminals who prey on them, but also the soul of a man who stands between them, and the soul of the family that—across decades—persists in drawing him back from the dark, urban abyss of his life’s work. These emotional dynamics make for an incredibly compelling read, and signal the arrival of a talented writer, one truly capable of narrating the lives that exist at the edges of our nation’s shadows.

    Jordan Dotson, author of "The Ballad of Falling Rock"

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Details

Author
Terrence P. Dwyer
Narrator
John Chancer
Duration
9 hours 47 minutes
Release Date
16 April 2026
ISBN
9798216386193
Format
Audiobook
Publisher
Bloomsbury Publishing
Genre
Police and security services, Autobiography: general, Memoirs, True crime, Police law and police procedures, Criminal law: procedure and offences, Coping with / advice about mental health issues or topics

Synopsis

Bloomsbury presents The Badge Between Us by Terrence P. Dwyer, read by John Chancer.The Badge Between Us is a raw, unfiltered account of policing that tracks the impact of secondary trauma and moral injury, infused by instances of organizational betrayal and police officer corruption. It is a first-person account of author Terrence P. Dwyer’s final year as a New York State Police Investigator, with flashbacks from a 22-year career spent responding to and investigating violent crime and organized criminal gangs, and its impact upon him and his family. Through the lens of a final gang investigation and the subsequent quintuple murder of a young family, Dwyer delves into the workaday world of a homicide investigator.

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